Where Is My World?

Assalamualaikum wbt

I am having a chronic attention deficit problem.
And I have no place to run to.
And I have no one to turn to.
And I have bundles of works to be done.
And I can't force myself to be at all of them at once.
Where is the old Sarah?
The one whose enthusiastically lives her life with Que Sera Sera?
People, pray for me.
My brain is shutting down slowly.
My world is fading away quietly.
My world... Where is my world???

"Wahai Tuhanku,
tiada yang senang melainkan yang telah Engkau jadikan senang,
dan kalaulah Kau datangkan kesusahan,
maka Kau senangkanlah semula Wahai Tuhan sekelian alam.
Wahai pendidik Adam,
maka Kau didiklah pula kami.
Wahai sumber kefahaman Sulaiman,
maka Kau fahamkanlah pula kami.
Wahai penganugerah hikmah cerdik pandai kepada Luqman,
maka ke atas kami Kau anugerahkanlah hikmah kembali."