Assalamualaikum wbt
I was too busy lately. Too many things to be done. Too many things to think about. Last Saturday, Jan 13th, I went to Ramstore Belayeva with Emy regarding our tickets to Egypt. Owh ya. I'm leaving for Egypt on Jan 24th, Insya Allah.
To make it short, when it was Jan 10th, it was midnight at that time, we all gathered in Reza's room to celebrate his birthday together with Firdaus. 2 birthday boys in 1 night. Such a simple 'makan-makan' but still, it was happening. I left them watching Nana Tanjung together because Imen was in my room at that time. I didn't want to leave her alone for quite a long time. But, on my way down to my room, at the 3rd floor, I met Rajj, an Indian guy from India, a guy that I avoid most of the time.
I actually had forgotten his face already but still, he recognized me! Ya Allah. What a bad luck! I tried my best throughout this sem not to meet him even at the corridor. But that night, it just happened accidentally.
He asked me why I didn't answer his calls or messages. I told him that everytime he called me, I wasn't in my room and didn't bring along my handphone. And I kinda person who don't like to reply messages (this is so true). Then he asked me whether I have exam or not. Ya Allah. I didn't know why I conciously lied to him! I told him that I'll have exam on Jan 11th, but actually I don't. Then he told me that he will call me after 11th, on 12th perhaps.
Arghh...!! I hate him! Eiii....Then I informed him that I'll not be around after 18th because I'm leaving to Egypt (the exact date is 24th but to make him not to contact me, then I make it earlier!). After that short conversation with him, I rushed back to my room with regretness for leaving Reza's room alone and earlier.
On Jan 12th, I went to Mega. With high hope to go skating, but it ended up I just did the shopping part (more exact to be called as window shopping, huhu). The ice rink was so crowded that day. When I was in mega, eating at the food court next to the ice rink, I just took a glance on my phone and there were 3 misscalls from RAJJ! Fuh...Alhamdulillah I didn't hear the phone ringing....At least I have reason for not answering his calls. Otherwise, I have to lie again, the thing I don't want most. And that night, I spent time with Imen, memorizing Surah Maryam together and tadarus Al-Quran for Surah Al-Baqarah.
You all must be questioning me, why on earth I tried avoiding him for the whole sem? Who's Rajj actually? What's the annoying thing about him? What and what and what? Why and why and why?
Actually I knew him in the end of last sem, when I was on my way to the library with Nazlin. He came to us and started being so friendly with us, eventhough we didn't know him before. And starting by this sem, in early September, he started calling me. I have no idea from where he got my number. But I just answered his called only for 2 times. The very 1st time was because I had no idea who's calling and the 2nd time was because I forgot to save his number after the 1st call. But after saving his number, I just ignored his calls or messages. And why I tried to avoid him? Because I don't like him. Or maybe I can say that it's not me who behave like that. And because he asked me out. Uwek! Hello... This is more not me. And I don't like to chat around with people I don't know. Especially guys.
I still remember, he once said that he wanted to buy me a lunch or at least a drink in McD. Uh, no, no. Logically, will you guys feel comfortable with such person? Don't you feel it's annoying to have people like this around you? Hmm.. Maybe some of you don't, and because I know I'm conservative, I'm not a social type person, I don't like it very much. I just want to be myself.
So that day, on Jan 13th, I was on my way back from Ramstore Belayeva, I was on the bus with Emy and suddenly Rajj got through my phone. The night before I had been thinking about this, and had decided to go straight with him about what I should be telling him.
I picked the phone up. He greeted me with his so called romantic-like-stupid voice. Uwek! He not even finished greeting me, I told him I wanted to be straight. I just splushed away whatever was in my mind. I told him that I'm not kind of girl who go out with guys easily like that, I'm not kind of girl who speak on phone, chatting about everything with guys that I not even know his full name, I'm not kind of girl who feel comfortable to talk about others, gossiping about world etc and I'm doing this because simply it's not me. Totally not me. This is not me. And before I hang up, I asked him to delete my number straight away after the call, and I will do the same. Tut tut tut... I cut the line off.
It's simple. The main reason was because I know that it's not me. I'm not that kind of girl. And I know the consequences of letting it happens. Plus, I don't like him, annoying and he drunk almost 4 times a week. He claimed that he is 50-50 muslim because his mother is muslim but his father isn't. But he wanted to be a muslim. For the time being, I wish that he could learn what does Islam mean and symbolize. Not only Islam on your name. But also in your heart and soul and to practice Islam as your way of life. And I pray that 1 day he will be a good muslim, Insya Allah.
Is it wrong to be truly myself?
Inna solaati wa nusuki wa mahyaaya wa mamaati lillahi rabbil 'aalamiin...
Notes:
1) Happy 72nd birthday to Tok Halimah... Seronok lepas call Tok tadi. (Jan 17th)
2) Thanks to Adam yang buatkan special birthday card untuk Ngah, eventhough it'll be in 2 days time.
3) Thanks to SAMFAI who's the 1st to greet me this year. Awal-awal lagi dah ada yg wish =)
4) Fizy, u're the 2nd =p
5) Faisal and Nazlin, thanks for the advanced birthday present. You both are the 3rd la ;)
5) Salman, I'm younger for 4 days than u! MUDA tetap MUDA =)
I was too busy lately. Too many things to be done. Too many things to think about. Last Saturday, Jan 13th, I went to Ramstore Belayeva with Emy regarding our tickets to Egypt. Owh ya. I'm leaving for Egypt on Jan 24th, Insya Allah.
To make it short, when it was Jan 10th, it was midnight at that time, we all gathered in Reza's room to celebrate his birthday together with Firdaus. 2 birthday boys in 1 night. Such a simple 'makan-makan' but still, it was happening. I left them watching Nana Tanjung together because Imen was in my room at that time. I didn't want to leave her alone for quite a long time. But, on my way down to my room, at the 3rd floor, I met Rajj, an Indian guy from India, a guy that I avoid most of the time.
I actually had forgotten his face already but still, he recognized me! Ya Allah. What a bad luck! I tried my best throughout this sem not to meet him even at the corridor. But that night, it just happened accidentally.
He asked me why I didn't answer his calls or messages. I told him that everytime he called me, I wasn't in my room and didn't bring along my handphone. And I kinda person who don't like to reply messages (this is so true). Then he asked me whether I have exam or not. Ya Allah. I didn't know why I conciously lied to him! I told him that I'll have exam on Jan 11th, but actually I don't. Then he told me that he will call me after 11th, on 12th perhaps.
Arghh...!! I hate him! Eiii....Then I informed him that I'll not be around after 18th because I'm leaving to Egypt (the exact date is 24th but to make him not to contact me, then I make it earlier!). After that short conversation with him, I rushed back to my room with regretness for leaving Reza's room alone and earlier.
On Jan 12th, I went to Mega. With high hope to go skating, but it ended up I just did the shopping part (more exact to be called as window shopping, huhu). The ice rink was so crowded that day. When I was in mega, eating at the food court next to the ice rink, I just took a glance on my phone and there were 3 misscalls from RAJJ! Fuh...Alhamdulillah I didn't hear the phone ringing....At least I have reason for not answering his calls. Otherwise, I have to lie again, the thing I don't want most. And that night, I spent time with Imen, memorizing Surah Maryam together and tadarus Al-Quran for Surah Al-Baqarah.
You all must be questioning me, why on earth I tried avoiding him for the whole sem? Who's Rajj actually? What's the annoying thing about him? What and what and what? Why and why and why?
Actually I knew him in the end of last sem, when I was on my way to the library with Nazlin. He came to us and started being so friendly with us, eventhough we didn't know him before. And starting by this sem, in early September, he started calling me. I have no idea from where he got my number. But I just answered his called only for 2 times. The very 1st time was because I had no idea who's calling and the 2nd time was because I forgot to save his number after the 1st call. But after saving his number, I just ignored his calls or messages. And why I tried to avoid him? Because I don't like him. Or maybe I can say that it's not me who behave like that. And because he asked me out. Uwek! Hello... This is more not me. And I don't like to chat around with people I don't know. Especially guys.
I still remember, he once said that he wanted to buy me a lunch or at least a drink in McD. Uh, no, no. Logically, will you guys feel comfortable with such person? Don't you feel it's annoying to have people like this around you? Hmm.. Maybe some of you don't, and because I know I'm conservative, I'm not a social type person, I don't like it very much. I just want to be myself.
So that day, on Jan 13th, I was on my way back from Ramstore Belayeva, I was on the bus with Emy and suddenly Rajj got through my phone. The night before I had been thinking about this, and had decided to go straight with him about what I should be telling him.
I picked the phone up. He greeted me with his so called romantic-like-stupid voice. Uwek! He not even finished greeting me, I told him I wanted to be straight. I just splushed away whatever was in my mind. I told him that I'm not kind of girl who go out with guys easily like that, I'm not kind of girl who speak on phone, chatting about everything with guys that I not even know his full name, I'm not kind of girl who feel comfortable to talk about others, gossiping about world etc and I'm doing this because simply it's not me. Totally not me. This is not me. And before I hang up, I asked him to delete my number straight away after the call, and I will do the same. Tut tut tut... I cut the line off.
It's simple. The main reason was because I know that it's not me. I'm not that kind of girl. And I know the consequences of letting it happens. Plus, I don't like him, annoying and he drunk almost 4 times a week. He claimed that he is 50-50 muslim because his mother is muslim but his father isn't. But he wanted to be a muslim. For the time being, I wish that he could learn what does Islam mean and symbolize. Not only Islam on your name. But also in your heart and soul and to practice Islam as your way of life. And I pray that 1 day he will be a good muslim, Insya Allah.
Is it wrong to be truly myself?
Inna solaati wa nusuki wa mahyaaya wa mamaati lillahi rabbil 'aalamiin...
Notes:
1) Happy 72nd birthday to Tok Halimah... Seronok lepas call Tok tadi. (Jan 17th)
2) Thanks to Adam yang buatkan special birthday card untuk Ngah, eventhough it'll be in 2 days time.
3) Thanks to SAMFAI who's the 1st to greet me this year. Awal-awal lagi dah ada yg wish =)
4) Fizy, u're the 2nd =p
5) Faisal and Nazlin, thanks for the advanced birthday present. You both are the 3rd la ;)
5) Salman, I'm younger for 4 days than u! MUDA tetap MUDA =)
8 comments:
perhaps u shud do it in a more polite way. obviously dere's nothing wrong to be steadfast to ur principle and to be firm with ur stand,but we shudnt be 'rude' to ppl. i know u arent rude as i cant find da exact word describing u.
if i were u, i'll confront him and tell everything.be sincere to wat u feel n i'm sure he understands.if he doesnt,than u can start ignoring him (provided da message is truly conveyed) u didnt even ask him why was he contacting u countless time? why u and y not others? at least let him speak.yeah, to speak his mind.
then explain everything.clearly dere's nothing wrong being u, but we owe a duty to let urself speak n hear others.we arent living in da world of our own. still our life our rules..
conclusion of d day - tak salah org meminati dan menyukai kita dan tdk juga menjadi kesalahan kite tdk meminati atau menyukai org tersebut.
love always
a wann
salam abg wan,
perhaps by reading the story, the way i described it looks a bit rude. but in the real situation, i talked to him in the phone politely and actually i hv 1 more reason that didn't revealt out in the story. sy x suka indian dr india (x leh cakap omputih ni =p) yg belajar di sini. even kalau jd kawan sekalipun, sy x kan selesa sbb diorg not well behave.. dh banyak kes. so sy memang kurang senang. huhu..tp klu indian msian no problem! mcm isi dgn kuku =)
love always,
aYa
If dats da truth, i rest my case. =)
ic..
'anti a'lamat bi umuri duniaki'
sorry klu wazan a'lamat tak betul.abg compare ngan wazan izhab..huhuhu
uhibuki,
wassalam
xxx
Salam wbt.. yup, agak nampak 'rude'...
but, u did to the ppl like that. maybe tak salah, tp maybe juga kurang betulnya.
i think, the better way is.. kak s shud ask some of ur friends what Rajj wanted to talk about actually & maybe Rajj needed some advices etc..
you may give it thru ur friends..
@abg wan
gaya seorg lawyer sungguh!
shud be: ta'lamina
uhibbuk jiddan
aYa
@afiqawe
i asked my fren's oppinion, the 1 who knws him well. she suggested to let him knw my mind otherwise both wont feel great. i would feel annoyed and he would feel rejected. alhamdulillah actually i talked to him very nicely, with no harsh words. 1) bcoz it's not me who use bad words in life. 2) bcoz i was in bus! must speak with gentle and calm (macam macho la konon) =)
thnks for ur advice, awe
regards fr me who's waiting for the merajuk guy (u knw whom i refer to),
ks
happy birthday
take it from a lady.
u go girl!
true.it's not polite.but sometimes u
have to treat a person in such way to make him UNDERSTAND.obviously, he didn't get the picture.don't feel guilty bout it, i know i won't.
lastly,happy birthday to u..
hope everything goes well for u.
new age.new life.more things to explore.so,keep it up with the resolution(s).we'll be supporting u!
luv ya babe!muah!
@ak7
terima kasih incomparably..
@fatt
u know that u guys wil alwys be my best companions. terima kasih tak terhingga..
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