Naluri Mak...Hati Ngah...

Assalamualaikum wbt

semenjak sakit ni, almost evryday call mak...kemuncaknye smlm...call mak tp mak di kuantan sbb ade meeting..tp mujur time tu she was out of any schedule...so boleh la bergayut lama2..time tu baru je top up 10usd..tp lpas call tu, only 2usd left...huhu...

wkt call tu, mak asked me, still writing or not for my novel..then i told her i've no idea at all how to cont my novel (Di Hatiku Ada Kamu)..now DHAK 2...bcos d 1st 1 based on d real story plus some lucu2 ending...then she said, y dunt i write bout myself but creat some new conditions in addition... trupp... i was shock.. mak never gave comment on me n my writings but suddenly she did...ape yg lg memeranjatkan, she said : ur life story is interesting n not all pple hv met wif such condition...share wif them n make it real to them...n let them know dat life can be evrthg to us n sometimes can b nothing too...subhanallah...x caya mak nasihatkn sy mcm tu..sblum2 ni, mak just let me handle evrthg n never gave any comment coz she always said: i believe in u n i know u can manage it...

mak, sekuat kuat anak mak ni, ngah x kuat sbnarnya...n once she touched bout my life, my writings, i know, she did worry bout me vry much...n lastly she asked my: ni call mlm2 ni misti ade smthing ni..kalau x, x de nye nk call time2 ni... isy..skali lg terkena..mak ni mcm tau2 je... then i burst out wat did i feel within these few days... i told her dat still tringat ingt ape yg jd n rindu lg dgn sume tu...then mak ckp : x pe la ngah...klu bende tu bende baik, ALLAH akn lanjut kn 1 hari nnti... trus sy menangis... dlm diam2 mak, mak kate, mak byk doakn sy psl hal yg dah lepas tu...but seriously, i couldnt help myself at dat time..i cried to mak...x boleh tahan...lebih2 lg, slalu sgt b'seorngan skrg ni..so mmg trasa sunyi sgt...

mak, nak balik msia! nk duduk dgn mak..x jd doc pun x pe..bleh jd tukang masak!hmmmm....ape2 yg nk jadi pn jadi la...i have the best mak in d entire world... sayang mak!!

~SyurGa iTu di bAWaH TeLaPaK kAki iBu~ ~ampunkan dosa2 ngah ye mak...~

*Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, kau ampunilah dosaku dan dosa kedua ibu bapaku dan rahmatilah mereka sebagaimana mereka merahmati aku sewaktu kecilku dulu.....*

(taken from my former blog in my Friendster page, November 28, 2005)